This year

Has seriously sucked. My friend Ms Val pointed out that it is almost over. It could not be over soon enough for me. My giant family has lost sooo many people this year since April, 6 to be exact. Well 5 people and chopper. Now we are loosing one more person. He has received a hospice referral. I feel so bad for his kids and his wife. To loose the man that has been sleeping next to you every night, way earlier then you ever expected must be overwhelming. What do you do? She is a pillar of strength.

I am trying really hard to be there. But it is so hard. I feel the pain of Bill dieing so strongly 8 months later.

It just seems so unfair. I have three sets of parents. My mother and step dad (both gone), my father and step mom, and my foster parents. People tell me I am lucky to have so many parents. But I have already lost one set of parents and have two more sets to go. How lucky is that? I really don't feel so lucky.

Why gay marriage doesn't pass.

Because it is so damn confusing. In California and Oregon you had to vote no to vote yes and yes to vote no. No wonder it keeps not passing. People are voting yes thinking they are voting for gay marriage, when actually they are voting against it.

Why is that? Is it just to fuck with stoned people? Seems kinda stupid to me.