This year

Has seriously sucked. My friend Ms Val pointed out that it is almost over. It could not be over soon enough for me. My giant family has lost sooo many people this year since April, 6 to be exact. Well 5 people and chopper. Now we are loosing one more person. He has received a hospice referral. I feel so bad for his kids and his wife. To loose the man that has been sleeping next to you every night, way earlier then you ever expected must be overwhelming. What do you do? She is a pillar of strength.

I am trying really hard to be there. But it is so hard. I feel the pain of Bill dieing so strongly 8 months later.

It just seems so unfair. I have three sets of parents. My mother and step dad (both gone), my father and step mom, and my foster parents. People tell me I am lucky to have so many parents. But I have already lost one set of parents and have two more sets to go. How lucky is that? I really don't feel so lucky.

Why gay marriage doesn't pass.

Because it is so damn confusing. In California and Oregon you had to vote no to vote yes and yes to vote no. No wonder it keeps not passing. People are voting yes thinking they are voting for gay marriage, when actually they are voting against it.

Why is that? Is it just to fuck with stoned people? Seems kinda stupid to me.

You know what Ms Lohan's problem is she was a cute freckled face red head that could memorize lines. She really couldn't act. Her appearances on Ugly Betty kind of proves that. She is like a robot. A Disney robot.


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I'm done

So my twin cousin called to tell me her dad passed away.

This is the 6th death in my large extended family since Feb of this year. Yes 6. I am done. I can't take much more. How much is one person supposed to take? I have three sets of parents. My foster parents still alive, my dad and his wife still alive, then theres my mother and step dad they have already passed away.

It is killing me to think that I have to do this four more times. What is the purpose? Am I supposed to be learning from this? Am I supposed to learning to live with a broken heart?

OJ GUILTY!!!

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This man

is part of the cause. He can not even admit that every one in Congress and Senate dropped the ball. Especially the one who is head of the House Financial Services Committee. Mr. Frank's should step down. maybe even be prosecuted.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RAuOEdttjZQ

Suicide operatives

Is that what their called now, suicide operatives? A Militant Muslim Leader says he will send Suicide Operatives to blow up Paul in Tel Aviv if he does not cancel his appearance.

http://www.tmz.com/2008/09/15/paul-will-be-dead-says-islamic-preacher/

Lipstick on a pig

Let me interpert for you. When Obama said...If you put lipstick on a pig, Its still a pig.

What he was saying was You can put lipstick on a female dog , But she's still a female dog. And everyone knows what a female dog is. Bitch right.

It was a play on the Pitbull in lipstick remark. He just couldn't say if you put lipstick on a female dog. But he tried in a really lame way not to say dog, but meant Bitch. Also to the Muslim faith a pig is the worse thing you can be.

Portland should do this

Espicelly out on 82nd. In SE Portland we have two different kind of bike riders. We have the spandex and helmet riders and we have the OTHER (tweekers) riders.

The riders who ride the wrong direction. The ones who ride down the turn lane. The ones who put on Friday and Saturday night throw on their leather jackets and all ride their bikes to the bushes at Shuck's and drink beer with their other tweeker friends.

Those guys never wear helmets and we whould confiscate their bikes. There would be alot less incidents between cars and riders if these guys were removed from the road. The don't know the rules, they don't follow the rules, they don't care about the rules and they make 82nd dangerous.




http://www.boston.com/news/local/articles/2008/09/11/no_bike_helmet_lose_your_wheels/

You know what I've noticed

Through my many Political discussions. That Democrats are feelers and Republicans are thinkers.

When you hear the two parties discuss their views I have noticed that my Democrats friends seem to say I feel feel this way or i feel that way and Republicans friends tend to say I think this or I think that. Just something I have noticed.

hmmm

A twelve year old boy walks by and glances at the tv and says "Hey mom who's that" Mom McCain's running mate." 12 year old boy "WOW She's a MILF!' Even the twelve year old boys are paying attention.

He picked a chick. Can you believe it?
Obama picked a member of the old boys club that put him where he is today. He picked a man from the group that is blocking change. Obama picked a man that called Obama a clean black man. But he did not say black man he said the WORD Al and Jesse say we aren't allowed to say anymore. The WORD Jesse Jackson used while referring to the people he has professed to stand up for all these years. This is the man Obama picked.


There is another group of people in America who were once allowed to be owned, who were allowed to be traded, who were allowed to be beat, who did not have the right to vote and that group my friends was women.

Bill

I could not tell if it was was him screaming when they removed the tube or the voice in my head screaming NO!

This movie

SO we rented Micheal Clayton on Blu Ray, of course. My husband was all like its supposed to be a good movie. NOT! It was a crap fest. I would of rather watch prostitutes wander up and down 82nd then to have wasted my precious time on that crap fest. Everytime he says I heard it was a good movie I know its going to suck. I'm like did you here it was a good movie from your friends or some uptight dude reviewing it. Because the uptight media dudes are out of touch with the people of America. They love any move put out by George Clooney. They flock to see it because it has a message. Fuck messages. Give me an entertaining flick thanks. Oceans 13 sucked so bad it was unreal. I don't know why after seeing that my ol man expected anything different from a Clooney flick.

Hollywood movie profits are down because movies suck. There has not been an original idea in forever. Just remakes of the same movie over and over again. Even the action flicks have to have a love story. Remember Rambo First Blood, a fine example of an action flick with no love story.

So Earl is in the hospital

Earl is one of my Uncle's best friends, he's a black dude. He used to help take care of me when I was a kid. When my mom split I lived with my granny.

So one day my granny and granddad left me with my Uncle Kenny and Earl. Kenny came in and started a bath and told Earl to make sure I took a bath. Then he went out to wash his car. A little time passes by and Kennys see me standing on the front porch with a dry as a bone. With empty vitamin bottle in hand. Kenny says "how many vitamins did you eat" I say "two". "How many did Mark eat" I say "two" "Where the HELL is Earl"

Earl was asleep on the couch. The whole house was flooded. And I had to have my stomach pumped. I apparantly had eaten about three hundred Flinstone vitamins.

Kenny and Earl also used to take me and my brother to the pool hall with them. They were great babysitters. And I am sure I learned lots of stuff at an early age hanging out with them.

Earl has stomach cancer. He has had two surgeries over the past 10 days. But the cancer is pretty much through out his entire body. They say he doesn't have much longer. Here's to Earl and the experiences we shared. I may not remember all of them. But I bet it was always an adventure.

Sooo

I decided to try Wellbutrin. Didn't like it. It was like my brain was empty I was totally thoughtless.

Also I was standing in my kitchen. It seemed like I had been there a while and I said to my self....self why are you sitting on a chair in your head. It was like I was sitting on a chair in my brain watching everything that was going on in my house.

I got this from a friends, friends myspace. But it pretty much sums it up.

Mourning
I want to scream and cry
But still I move forward
My head begins to ache and I frown all the time
But still I move forward
Small things are mountainous, big things galactic, my skin feels rubbed raw
But still I move forward
I feel the loss continually and want to shake the uneffected
But still I move forward
I strive for peace
I try to focus on the possitives,
I grasp at the strings of routine to no avail
I stop moving though my world is a cyclone
I can't seem to find my way around the loss
So I lay And breathe
I stare And wait
Till morning when I am once again forced into motion
And I move forward

Kids can tear up anything. There is nothing that a kid can't destroy. My dad used to tell me "You could tear up a brick bat." I am not sure what a brickbat is, but I can tear the shit out of one.

Its my birthday

And I shouldn't be overwhelmingly sad, but I am. I am sad because my mom is gone and isn't going to call me two weeks after my birthday and tell me Happy Birthday. While she apologizes and cries for an hour. I always so looked forward to that. And I guess I kind of miss it. It has been two years since she passed away. I am also sad cuz Bill (her husband) is gone and I won't get to hear him say Hey Dani Happy Birthday. He was always excited on Birthdays. He was always excited just to talk to me.

I have a question

If plastic grocery bags contaminate our recycling Isn't our recycling contaminated before we ever put it in the bin. It is contaminated as soon as it is loaded in the grocery bag at the store.

If she was my homework I would do her on the table

So the BGP was this weekend

The BGP was this weekend it was great fun. The theme was Wild West. And what could be better then a bunch of cowboys in tight pants, jello shots in Teepee's and naked twister. NOTHING I TELL YOU NOTHING! Miss Bolivia Carmichaels and Elton performed. (You can also catch her at CC Slaughters).It was a fantastic show. Bolivia always puts on a fantastic show. There was no fire dancer this year. But that did not extinguish the fun in anyway. My peeps are awesome. THANKS GUYS AND GAL FOR ALL THE FUN!! SEE YA'LL NEXT YEAR!

even the dogs are excited

Jailbirds

What happens in jail stays in jail

Cowboy in tight pants

ps whoever barfed in the cans and bottles bins. That really sucked. Remember boys and girls party responsibibly!!