I'm house sitting four dogs.  One of them rubbed it butt hole on my leg.  I still haven't gotten over it.  I may never get over it.

I'm tired. Im tired of bullshit.  I'm tired of trying to save b people.  When I'm drowning.  I'm just fucking tired.

I don't know where Im being sent in life. I miss my kids.  I want to meet my grandbaby.
But shit just keeps going wrong.   Day after day after mother fucking day.  Something goes wrong.

I'm tired of being amine.  I'm tired of mother fuckers thinking they can fuck me over.  Just because I'm nice.  When really. I just want to throat punch them.  Throat punch a mother fucker.  That's probably what I need to do.

When I talk about Tweekers, in Portland.  People ask me.  What's a tweeker?

A tweeker is a meth head. Usually homeless.   In Portland the tweekers are bad.  Really bad.  They have no qualms about stealing from you.

They will take up living in your attic, or your garden shed. They live in storage units, along the bike tail. They pee in milk jugs where they take up residence.  I think it's mandatory.

Tweekers in Portland.  They just walk in your back door. It doesn't matter what neighbor hood you live in.  Rich neighbor hood.  Middle class neighbor hood.

Tweekers don't stay in one area.  They spread out.  Like cockroaches in the night.  They'll sell your identity, for meth.  After staying up all night. taping your shredded documents, that they stole out your trash, back together.

They steal Lil midget ladies wallets.  Lil midget ladies that don't say thank you.  When you chase down said Tweeker.

Tweekers are what meth turns you into.  I see more and more kids.  Getting into meth.  I'm seeing more Tweekers roaming the streets in Midland.  Meth related crimes standby young people to jail.

Midland really needs a drug education program for parents.They are really oblivious. Some people think Bath salts come from the bathroom.
They come in powder form.  Sold in head shops.  They will turn your child into a weird ass zombie.  Smoked with meth. They turn you into a whole nother person.
Where your not even human like.  You can stay like that forever.  One kid slit his throat. Tying to make the bad trip stop.

I see the meth problem growing in Midland.  It's scary.  We don't need to lose anymore kids to meth.  Getting a kid off meth.  It's a battle that's almost impossible for a parent to win.  Even harder when the kids an adult.

Nope, Not gonna fix this tooth.  People find it sexy.  Plaid shirt dude.  The guy that asked if ZI was Allergic to duct tape.  Who knew?  A girl told me it adds to my character.

Dog poop should have a better smell.
We give these dogs room and board.  But, if it did.  Some asshole would put it in our candy.

Dog poop should have a better smell.
We give these dogs room and board.  But, if it did.  Some asshole would put it in our candy.

No one writes the script for us.  We write it for ourselves. You can be a victim, a hero...... a super hero or a villian.

We can blame others for our choices.  But, in the long run.  It's you who decides what you do.

Write a book.  Do cocaine. Join a cult. Be a preacher.  Be a sinner.  Be a saint.  It's our own choice.     I see the world.  Blaming everyone else.  For their choices.   It all up to you.  Not anyone else.

You can't just go around.  Rubbing on you sisters coochie while she sleeps.  That's fucking weird man.

To say God forgave him.  He's a sexual abuser, a molester.  Its a crime.  He should of been punished.  Fifteen is old enough to know better.  He's  not special needs. So he knew better.

He molested another girlyt? besides sisters.  Whether was this behavior learned?  Their religion is weird.  

Its a vagina for Fuck sake.  Not a clown car.

I am trying my best to update.  At least.  Every three days.

Some people might be offended by this.

So.  Apparently.  When you are single.  People will just ask you.  How should I put this?  To dine on your whisker biscuit.  Their just all like...Hey. You.  Over there. Let me eat your whisker biscuit.  They expect you to be like.  Hold on.  Let me get the honey and squirt parkay.
 

Some people just want to taste your wugget. Some people want to eat your  pink taco in a car.  After their husband goes to sleep.  Its weird to me.  To message a person.  That you have never met and say.   Hey. I want to chew on your pink bubble gum, by the bum.

 Some people just know instinctively.  Just by looking at your picture.  That they want to dive in your pound.

I have a friend that was amazed that this happens to me.  Well it happened to her.  Her's are people she knows.  Mine are strangers.

That weird to me.

Hi my name is Bob.  I want to eat your cucumber canal.  Like a salad.

Someone asked me today.  Have you ever wanted to die?  My response was.  I grew up in the Texas foster care system.  I always wanted to die. 

I also think.  That my behavior.  Between the ages of 17 and 23 was death wisish.  I was pretty damn reckless.  A few people might testify to that fact.  I know Sherry Reeves, Kelli, Jodie and Sabrina.  Really helped me keep my head on.  But, it was wobbly as hell.  I owe a lot of my survival to one of them stepping in. At some point and saying whoa. 

Sometimes I can't see the difference.  Between a comma and a period.  Sorry.  Its an eye thing.

Why are people in their 20's. So damn attracted?

Should I fix my tooth?

Or does it give me character?

I get various responses. 

Some people HATE IT.  Some people find it gives me character.  And for some reason some people think its overwhelmingly sexy.  So sexy they have to hump on me.  In various states of dress.
24 and 25 year old men and women.  Find me quite attractive.

A 25 year old, fast food assistant manager. Humped my leg. Told me how sexy I was.  We were playing shuffle board.  He was a real cutie.

I told him,
'Dude! 
I am 47 years old. 
I am missing half a front tooth. 
You are my SON'S age.
What the hell is wrong with you?' 

Same night.  A 28 year old.  Put the moves on me.  I told him the same thing.  EWWWWWEEEEE!  Creeps me out.

Lots of people are strangely attracted to me.  I have this weird following.    Some are straight women. Girl, straight girls really like me.

 I just saying something.  Because, its gotten kind a weird lately.  It doesn't seem to matter what age. Or if I'm missing half a front tooth. I have a few friends who can vouch for me.  Some friend, who have felt said attraction. And were surprised by it.   One friend had even place a bet.  On how many people at some event.  Would like me.

I'm not complaining.  I haven't done it with any of them.   Sometimes. Married chicks message me on facebook.  Telling me what they want to do to me.  Some don't even introduce themselves.  RUDE!.....I'm not into married anyone.  This is West Texas.  I'm not trying to get shot.

Also, weird things happen to me in the bathroom.  I get to see lots of boobs.  People just want to show them to me.  I don't ask or anything.  Well, maybe once or twice I asked.  One lil' 5 foot woman in her 60's.  Told me I was a long tall drink of water.  Then rubbed my butt.

One time at the strip club.......I have some crazy pheromones

My friend told me.  I thought you'd only attract rednecks with that tooth.

All my life its been hard for me to slow my mind down.  Today, I was sitting at an intersection.   Just wanted to keep driving.  It hard for me to drive the  speed limit.  My wants me to go faster.  Today I really wanted to step on the gas and keep going.  It seems my mid is most comfortable going 100.  But, since that is breaking the law.  I decided to drive on home.  But, I am still fighting the feeling to be out of control.  Its like I can feel it in my heart.   My jaws are constantly clenched, my pulse is always high.

Yes , I have bags under my eyes.  Why?!  Because my sons a US soldiers.  Currently in harms way!

What do you call a Wal-Mart conspiracy theorists. A nitwit.  Our soldiers are not Nazis or the Gestapo. They aren't coming to take your guns.  Assholes!!!!

I'm not dating anyone.  But, I do have a following.  Espicelly amongst the straight girls.  Couples want me to come home with them.  Gay men and 24 year olds boys, want to make out wih me. Married  women want me to downlow them.

 It's kind of an eclectic group thats attracted to me.  This is even with a broken  tooth.  I don't know what its all about   It's kinda always been that way.  Not that I'm having sex with these eclectic people.  But, there's been some crazy shit go down.  Especially in bathrooms.  Weird shit happens to me in bathrooms.

My friend told me.  I thought you would only attract rednecks with that broken tooth.  Nope.  People want me.  It's a curse.

I would give you  the shirt off my back.  Then be perfectly comfortable.  Standing there with no shirt on.

Well, the pictures of the tanks claiming to be at the Midland WalMart .  It just stirs people up.  

In Portland. I saw a lot of left wing conspiracy theorist.

I was at a house warming party, in Portland.  My friends landlord asked me where I was from.  That I had an accent . I said Midland TX

He freaked out.  Asked me if I knew George.  I said I went to his church.  I saw the twins get baptized.  He followed me around half the night.   Telling me the crazies George Jr conspiracies.  Or just saying just the rudest things about Texans.  He even called me a dove murderer.  I've never even dove hunted.  His wife finally kept him away from me.

Another time, I was in a taxi with a Russian driver.  He said Bush Jr.  Was opening internment camps and was rounding up Muslims.  He suggested rounding up Ukranians.

It happens with all Presidents.

I do think it's a distraction.  The puppet master is trying to divert  our attention.

I mean the Wal-Mart bathroom in Midland.  Was alwayys wet and smelled bad.

 I don't think the Chinese are taking over the Midland Wal-Mart. To come confiscate our guns.  I guess it could happen.  But, I'm thinking probably not.   I've only got two boxes of bullets.  I won't last very long.

If Mama June is bi sexual   Then I'm the Pope.

How far will she go for attention?  Really?  No woman would have sex with her.  Never.  Even if they were roofied   They'd still say. fucj that Shit.   You gotta roll her in flour to find the wet spot.

Let's address the sex shop situation in Midland.

Shouldn't the windows be dark.  i have been in sex shop in at least four states.  All the windows were dark.  Who wants to shop for giant dildos, pocket rockets and girl on girl porn?  With the sun shining in.

Sex shops should be liked Vegas.  A little bit seedy. dark and you shouldn't be able to tell what time it is outside.

So, I got my hair cut.  Let me just tell you.  Women and men like the spiked haired Dani.

suicide is a terrible thing man.  It leaves a path of destruction.  A path of  destruction that the person committing the act never thinks abut.  I can picture the flash of deciding that the time has come.  there were times in my life.  when I thought this is enough. I'm done with this life.  I was much younger.  I mean.  I had a really tough childhood. 

To me it seems like such a selfish act.  One that leaves people left here saying.  What the fuck?  What that really necessary?  Did I have to see that?  Did I have to feel this pain?  What in your life was so bad. That you hav4 to leave us to deal with the after math your suicide?

yah.  I've been drinking.


APPARANTLY I WAS DRUNK WHEN I WROTE THIS.

Ever wanna just lock yourself in a room and just say Fuck it.  Say, I've had all I can stands, I can't stands no more.  Then just not come out.  Just live in that room.  Have your kid bring you aderall, yoo hoo, tequila and depends.

When something happens to a friend.  A family member.  I feel it deeply.  Maybe more deeply then I should.  Maybe because of my childhood   i don't know.  Cheri says that I'm a
an empath.

I went to Pinkies.  Bought a bottle of pre mixed margaritas.  And a bottle of tequila.  It's that kind of week.  I'm tired of the sadness.   Sick  and fucking tired of it.

Policemen and politicians should not be over 70.  Just saying.

Apparently, I can not even smell scotch. Sean bought a 125 dollar bottle of scotch.  I could smell the shot glass.  Sitting in the sink.  I almost threw up in the sink.

I was hanging with old friends yesterday.   Like friends for 30 years friends.  It was nice. It feels good to hang out with all of them.  I love these ladies.
We went to Rileys.  Rileys has a rough reputation.  Bit it a nice bar.  Brandon has done a great job with it. I've met good people there.  So one of the girls was apprehensive.  She said.  One of the reasons she came.  Was because I made her feel safe.   Because no matter how crazy I was.  They always knew they were safe with me.  That I wouldn't let anything happen to them .

It was really nice to hear.  And I never realized that.  No matter what people say about me.   These ladies know me.  They knew who I am. They know my heart.   Gossip mongers can gossip.  But these ladies opinion count to me.

It's like I have a shit load of thoughts on my head.  And all of them are running around like Charlie Chaplin, Bobcat Goldthwait,  Gilbert Gotfreid and Donald Trump.

Its midnight. I have been outside to 'get some fresh air'. Taken a knock out pill. I'm totally awake.  Frankly, I could vomit. My stress level might actually.  Cause the big one in Cali.  I really hate barfing.

I really want to be doing this......

So, I went to see a old and dear friend in the hospital today. She was apparantly almost pronounced dead and in a coma for three days.  You know she had always been a bante rooster.  With the biggest heart.

I walked in the door hugged her and said. You gotta get off the meth.  There was a lot of denials and twitching around.  It was like she was crawling off the bed at me. We talked for a while.  About life and such.

I watched as the Hodpital guys come to pick her up.  It broke my heart.  Not gonna lie.  I cried a little.



I have always had an addictive personality. I thought. There before the grace off God go I.  In really afraid she won't stay.  I fear I will attend her funeral.

So, I haven't been sleeping.  So, I have been watching web series.  A lot of them.   Are horrible.  Really, really horrible.

Right now

We rescued four dogs today.  Two different sets.  A Getman Shepard and Chihuahua. Then two dachshunds .  The first two dogs were in Green's parking lot.  One had a tag on.  Apollo.

We called the guy.  He came right overand picked them up.  The other two were on Wall, by Rileys.

 They were in the street.  I chased the back to their house.  The fence didn't have a gate though.  They'll just get back out.

A truck almost ran them over.  I was in the street waving my arms at him to stop.

It was a busy day.  We're like super heroes.

You know what scares me?  Sink holes.  Sink holes scare the shit out  of me

I'm not dating anyone.  Haven't dated anyone in two years.  BUT PEOPLE SURE LIKE TO SPECULATE WHO I WILL DATE.  WILL I DATE A MAN OR A WOMAN.  AM I DATING SOMEONE AND NOT TELLING EVERYONE.

Seriously not dating anyone.   But, I am open to the idea of dating.  So if you have any friends......

The thing about Mongo.  He misses the same people I do.

Married men think I want to have sex with them. 

Recently a married man offered me a free service.  I thought as a friend.  We had been friends back in the day.  He always liked me back in the day.

 Maybe he just couldn't help himself.  I don't know why he thought it was ok.  I politely said no.  Then politely said no again and once again.   I finally just quit responding.. 

Other married men have hit on me.  Women too. That doesn't piss me off as bad.  One woman straight out messaged me and said she wanted to dine at the Y.....How does she know?  We never met in really life.  I mean I could be a hairy hippy or a toothless whore.  LMFAO  Or into really weird shit. 

You know.  Working in the oilfields is dangerous.  But when people compare it to being a soldier.  I want to laugh in their faces.  So they're getting shot at by snipers.  There's IED's on the way to work.  There's a chance of being kidnapped and burned alive in a cage.

A soldier catches sleep when he can.  Sometimes that place is 20 minutes on the ground.  After a batter that's lasted all night. While being bit by sand fleas.  A roughneck usually has a bed to go home to, after a shift.

Working in the oilfields is dangerous. But it's not fighting a war dangerous.  So, stop it.

I'm really concerned about this whole Neighbors With Benefits.  I had neighbors with benefits before.  Maybe not exactly the same.   Well sort of not the save.... give or take.  Whatever.

I'm concerned because I don't have any Neighbors With Benefits.

Fifty Shades Of Grey.  Was pretty hot.  The sex scenes were pretty well done.  But other then that.  It was a shit show.  The sex scenes were pretty good.  And I watch porn while I work out.  So, there's that.

I'm pretty sure.  The people on either side of me.   Wanted me to punish them.

Christian Grey was not attractive either.  He wad kind of a wussy.  Way too metro sexual.

Found this note this morning.  It seems important.

       

                                                       Adult Jenga, Rum, Miley and Guns

                                                     

 

 

 

 

Things drunk purple like

Maybe its that I have lived a sexually adventurous life.  I don't find Fifty Shades of Grey interesting.  It doesn't seem intriguing.  I haven't actually read the books.  They seemed ehhhh, to me.  i read three quarters of the first book.

But, I have been roped into seeing the movie.  I'll update y later

I would not pay money to kiss Shemar Moore.

Dude!  I mean just look where his mouths been.  He kisses some random stranger.  Every time he goes on a talk show.

That doesn't even count the hoochies he sleeps with.

That's cooties multipled by a million.

Damn.  I got motivated today.  Cleaned my room.  Rearranged stuff.  Put my pants on cute lil pants hangers.  Cleaned the kitchen.  Mopped the house.  Got Ronda motivated to do get room.  Even got get to do some Pilates machine.

                                                                  GOOD MORNING!!
                                                                                          

SNOW DAY

 

 

BRUCE ACTUALLY SAID SCREW THIS!!

 

 

I bought this damn dark chocolate gluten free shit bar.  It's a small step above eating suet.

Yes.  Those are grinch pants.

I just used the moonshine lid.  To cover the black beans.  They're organic and I recycled.

So Cat Woman came out as Bi.  Good for her.

But really should it matter what anyone is.

And you know what else.  If you don't wanna eat couscous. I don't care,  If you don't want to try Quinoa.  Whatever.   Red meat, sausage (aka pork) and chicken all you eat.  You on the 'make a fat and happy husband diet'.

I'm not saying that people like this have a bad have a bad palate.  They just chose not to explore their palate.  They prefer to scowl at your plate and say.  'Eww, I don't eat that'.  All right. Don't eat it. 

They don't want to explore the joy of food. The taste and influence of other countries. That's cool.
But, good gawd man.  Do not make faces at the food I eat.   I don't say anything about your 1980's meat and potatoes diet.  .  Cart all loaded with Little Debbies and Cheetos.  Wondering why you can't lose weight.  Scowln' at my cucumber.

Throw some cucumbers in your basket.  Some say they are multi purpose.  Grab a bag of sweet potato chips.  Get some garbanzo bean hummus.  That shits good!  Might wanna stay away from butternut squash.  And for fuck sakes smile!

They gave me prednisone for my allergic reaction.  This is my fourth day on it.  I almost popped Mama June in the mouth today.  With her Honey Boo Boo  look alike in the cart.  Ten years old.  Coughing with her mouth open.  I am mad just thinking about it. 
That prednisone sure does fuck with your brain.    

I felt like if someone had crossed me.  Shit would of gone really bad.  Like bedroom door bad.  People of Walmart don't even know how lucky they are.

So, I had an allergic reaction.  Not sure to what.  It was crazy. 

My head blew up like it had helium in it.Here I am looking like Michael

 

 

 

I don't even know what to say about this one.  I went to bed with hives.  Woke up lookn' like Mr. Magoo and shit.

 

Isis is throwing gays off of cliffs.  Viciously, almost joyfully, murdering folks.. Murdering Muslims, Murdering Christians, Murdering children and babies.  All in the name of Allah.

BUT BY GAWD!!  WE NEED EQUAL PAY FOR WOMEN!  Patricia Arquette, 'The Medium' stands ups, shakes her fist and pompously says.  Equal pay for women. 

We have people being MURDERED, BEHEADED, BURNED IN CAGES.  Real life, honest to goodness, flesh and bones.  Human beings are killed.  They gloriously film their deaths.
Has Hollywood lived in an imaginary world for so long.  That they can't see a true evil in the world.  Its arrogance.  Pure arrogance. 

How about women being held as wives by these terrorist?  What about their rights.  Should Isis be asking more for their sex slaves.
These females being sold as sex slaves.  Beaten, abused, whipped, raped.  Some as young as twelve.  But BY GAWD!! WE NEED EQUAL PAY FOR WOMEN.

Pompous, arrogant, rich, millionaire Liberal.  Says she needs to make more money.  More money for playing pretend.  Hmmm.  Sure.

The big show right now is 'The Slap'.  How dare someone slap someone else's child.
I'm sorry but how dare someone slaughter children.  In this day and time.   We don't see an urgency to stop this from happening.  From happening anywhere.  It boggles my mind. That large group of humans beings don't see this as a huge problem.


Fuck all those people being slaughtered and abused in the Middle East.   Hey yah.  Sorry.  We love the Muslims.  How long will Liberal Hollywood and Liberals in general?  Continue to not stand up verbally against the atrocity's.  That are being carried out in the Name of Allah?

Fifty Shades of Horny Moms.  I can't believe people expected this movie to be good.

To show a lot of what's in these books.  The movie would need to be rated X.

Some people just like freaky ass sex.  Some like it vanilla.  Some like it dirty.  Some like it hard core.  And some like step on my balls and call me a dirty girl sex.   Its just what they like. 

BDSM is a sexual culture.  A lot of people do it. From all different walks of life.  You would probably be surprised to find out people you know do it.  Just tying each other up is BDSM.  It doesn't mean these people are sex slaves or being forced to do this.

Some men like the women to do it to them.  Are they sex slaves too?

Some people like it with two people, three people, four people, more.  Its just what it is.  If its two consenting adults.  Or three or more consenting adults.  Well so be it.  People have they're thing.  Some like to hang themselves and jack off.  Now that shits weird.

Let people live. Don't judge their sex life's. 

DUDE!!!  How the fuck many people have to be beheaded?!  Burned alive?!  We need to stomp the hell out of some mother fuckers.  I mean seriously.

Every day more beheadings.  More people burned alive.  And this mother fucker over here......he goes golfing.  Yeah, There he is. Grinning like a Ginny eating briar.  In his yellow pants, golfing.

He needs to get his ass to the White Hose and start leading this country.

Put down the golf club.  Go kick some ass.  These people have all ready said they are coming for your family.  Isis wants your family and your golfing.  He doesn't even take these people seriously.


Then there's this......   http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2956882/ISIS-fighters-desperately-trying-obtain-VIAGRA-spending-money-kinky-underwear-wives-subjecting-brutal-abnormal-sex-acts-according-doctors-Syria.html